These poems are drawn from the poet’s own experiences of falling in love, learning to love and losing love. When you cannot find the words to express your love to the one you love, draw freely on these poems, that you and they may know love, build love and rejuvenate love.
If you choose to love me
If you choose to love me,
take the time you need to know me well.
Be not beguiled by lovers’ myths
that first affection’s heart is apt to tell.
Instead I ask you to concede, and honour pay
to weaknesses that are my guides in frailty;
to failings of my flesh that are a part of me
and testimony bear to my mortality.
Do not elevate me up to lofty heights where I asphyxiate
for lost awareness of my limitation.
For I shall tumble in unthinking petulance
to crash upon the roaring waves of arrogance
and thus will disappoint your expectation.
I ask you not to find frustration in my fears.
But rather see them in more kind illumination,
as sponsors of my Learnings set for future years.
Then, as each in its order disappears,
yours will be the joy of witnessing my transformation.
And if you choose to love me, patient be.
Do not sigh or rant when I withdraw to heal the heart of me.
There will be times when I will weave the silence
into bandages around my battered heart.
For if there were no chrysalis,
no butterfly would ever it depart.
But if you choose to love me,
rather slip your soul within the folds of mine
to meditate upon my inner ways
that you might know me as you can
and thus incline
your heart to love me now as when you first began.
Thus, having contemplated all,
and thought profound and long upon the implication,
if you choose to love me, then make this your meditation:
love me long and in unswerving constancy.
Love me, leaving room for reciprocity.
Love me not how you would have me be,
but rather love the here and present soul of me.
Paperback: 24 pages
Publisher: Pegasus House Publishing